THE SETUP
Vincent is lashing out at his younger brother Cian, who insists that their late friend Byron’s ghost is haunting him.
(The full scene which includes this monologue is also available for viewing: “Fighting for Custody of the Ghost”)
“There’s this huge chunk of my life now that’s gone completely out of focus.”
VINCENT
He was my best friend. My best friend. To you, he was — what? — someone convenient to be hung up on so you didn’t have to go out and develop any real personal life, take any real chances? Fellow member of your little homosexual sorority? I mean, look at you. Dead two years, he wasn’t even your boyfriend, and here you are still playing the widow, haven’t even so much as gone out on a date — unless of course you count my girlfriend — just how many people are you planning on stealing from me anyway?
I was there every day! You visited once. But he comes to you. How do you think that makes me feel?
I don’t care that it’s probably all in your head.
‘Cause you see, I don’t have that. All I’ve got is past tense. And that shit fades so fast. There’s this huge chunk of my life now that’s gone completely out of focus. Before, if I got lost or confused or off track, all I’d have to do is talk to him, not even about the problem, just talk about anything, because he understood me. He was everything I’d lived through.
Now I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing anymore.
And he comes to you.
(photo: 1997-1998 production by The Subterranean Theatre Company (Los Angeles, CA); Doug Sutherland as Cian, Tom Sonnek as Vincent)
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